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To Be Pregnant or Not To Be Pregnant?
That is the question.
At least, most weeks for me, that is the question.
I mentioned a while back, in a previous post, that it takes quite some time for the hormones to disappear after you’ve had a miscarriage.
I don’t know if it’s because I’ve had a few now, but it seems that they are taking longer to go each time.
Which is quite confusing, as I pretty much always have some form or other of pregnancy symptoms, regardless of whether I am pregnant or not.
The other annoying thing (which I’ve also mentioned before) is that if you take a pregnancy test after a miscarriage, the test will still say positive, even though you know you’re clearly not pregnant.
I know it might sound a bit crazy. Seriously, why would you take a test if you’ve just had a miscarriage?
But, trust me, if you’ve had one, you’ll probably understand.
From my point of view, I prefer to take them because I know I need to get a “negative” result before I can fall pregnant again.
That may sound silly, but obviously, it’s pretty difficult to get pregnant if your body still thinks you’re “pregnant”.
So anyway, this time around I have been taking a few tests just to try and find out where things are at.
So far, 4 weeks out and the tests are still positive… *sigh*
Such a frustrating process.
I wondered if this was unusual (luckily there are a lovely network of other ladies out there who have had the unfortunate experience of multiple miscarriages due to balanced chromosomal translocations too, that I am able to turn to when I’ve got weird-ass questions like this) and I have been reassured that for some, it takes up to 6 weeks to get a negative!
It’s nice to know I’m not the only weird one out there that takes a test hoping for a negative… seems kinda counter-intuitive, doesn’t it!?
You can giggle if you like, I think it’s kind-of-funny in an actually-not-funny way too.
But I also know that once the next pregnancy comes along, so does all the stress and anxiety that goes with wondering if this one will be “the one”.
“The one” with the good chromosomes.
But, I’ll just put that at the back of my mind until I need to worry about it again.
So for now, I’m really just sitting back, enjoying a few wines and thinking about all the wine and food tastings I’ll be doing on our family trip down south next week, when we go on our annual trip to visit our favourite wineries!
Did I mention there will be wine…!?
For now, I think it’s best just to enjoy the things I know I can, without feeling guilty about a possible-impending-pregnancy…
Until next time, that is 😉
Before you go, have you or someone you know experienced miscarriage, stillbirth or infertility? Throughout the month of October, we will be asking for people to share their story to raise awareness and reduce the stigma associated with these “taboo” topics. Check out this post for more info on how you can share your story.
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