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We’ve just found out about pregnancy number 4. I found a particularly fun way to tell Sam this time…
It was 4:30 this morning and we were both wide awake. I needed to pee and decided I might as well take a test while I was there. The test was positive so I trundled back to bed to tell Sam, jumped under the covers and reached over to give him a cuddle… to which he responded by screaming at the touch of my cold hands and telling me in no uncertain terms to “piss of”
…oops! That didn’t go as planned *giggle* #marriedlife
Anyway, it’s Friday today and I’m barely even 3 weeks in, but I had a few tip off’s during the week… feeling pretty hungry, craving a snickers bar, super tired and I kept getting this weird feeling in my stomach.
I’ve had that weird stomach feeling with each pregnancy. Kind of like I’ve over-stretched my abdominal muscles and they’re cramping or something. Sometimes it wakes me up in the night.
Has anyone else ever had that feeling? Or is it just me?
I pretty much knew what was up, so decided to take that test this morning. I wasn’t really surprised to see a clear dark line, even though I was testing 5 days early.
It’s hard to know how to feel this time around. Every other time I’ve rushed down to the lab to get a blood test and then waited anxiously for my OB to call and confirm.
This time, I’m not even going to bother rushing with that test. I don’t really see what difference it will make if I have the test today, tomorrow or in a week’s time.
I’m thinking I’d much rather just go with the flow, have the test when I’m feeling like it (I don’t need to make an appointment, it’s just a walk-in type system) and book a scan for somewhere around the 7 week mark.
Obviously, we know there’s a chance this one could make it. Probably about a 35% chance or something there abouts is our best guess.
Our genetics counsellor alluded to us that it’s higher than a 50% chance, but I find that pretty hard to believe.
I know most people’s first thought is to congratulate the couple when they find out they’re pregnant. We don’t want people to feel like they can’t offer congratulations, but at the same time, we do want people to understand that we may not seem particularly happy or excited about it.
I’m not unhappy of course, I just don’t want to have false hope. On the other hand, I don’t want to believe that it’s not going to work out either.
There isn’t really a set way of how to feel when you’ve experienced 3 miscarriages in a row and you’re onto your fourth pregnancy. You go in knowing that you have some small slither of a chance that you might go full term, with a pretty big chance that you’ll have another miscarriage, and then there’s also the thought that you could go full term with a baby who has a serious disability.
These possibilities aren’t exactly the most exciting ones to think about.
I think this is probably the calmest I’ve felt in relation to our pregnancies and chance of going full term so far.
I’m feeling reasonably comfortable with just going with the flow and seeing what happens. No amount of stress is going to make any difference, so I might as well just do whatever I feel like until I know any different.
We’ll see how long that motto lasts 😉
As always, feel free to comment with your thoughts below.
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